Thursday, November 29, 2012
We have been chosen in our hometown to be the Grand Marshall's of the Christmas parade. The kids are pumped about throwing candy out of a truck bed. A friend of mine and her husband had banners made that have the picture of the book on them. They are beautiful. She said she was going to help me with the signs for the parade, but I was thinking cardboard, glue and glitter. Such a sweet surprise to see my children's faces on a banner, so large, I can scarcely fit it into a picture on my camera. I took the girls and Adam to Chili's tonight - I just didn't feel like cooking. On the way home, we had a sing-a-long (all four of us) to that song, "just the way you are". I just felt completely happy. Those moments are fleeting - happiness, pure happiness like that. Some friends of ours got us an elf on the shelf. Her name is Crystal. She made us breakfast yesterday morning to which the three who still believe in Santa were completely amazed by. "How did she open the donuts? the milk?", "where did she get the plates, the cups?" Then they started to ask her for bigger favors like "can you put Christmas lights on our house?" I thought, Oh Lord, I have really started something here. I had her in the bathroom the first night and Adam refused to go in there. He said, "mom, she is creeping me out." He is so funny. Emma has learned how to do three cartwheels in a row. Poor Allie is trying to master one, but her cartwheel relies on only one hand, so often she falls and hurts her wrist, or her feet. I cut the girls' hair tonight and it looks extremely cute. They love it, and Adam couldn't tell them apart. I am literally, typing this as Emma is singing Christmas Carols and Allie is rolling around on the floor trying to make herself dizzy. What a Wonderful Life I have!
Monday, November 26, 2012
I didn't do the countdown of to Thanksgiving "things I am thankful for so here goes a short list: I am thankful for my children, my spouse, my mother and father, my sisters and brother-in-laws and my nieces and nephews, my cousins, my friends, my coworkers, my employers, my students. I am also thankful for rain, sunshine, snow and clouds. I am thankful for my salvation, Jesus and His word and His promises. I am thankful for good health and the ability to get out of bed every morning and go to work. I am thankful for flowers, italian food and especially chocolate. I am thankful for sweet tea and Dr. Pepper. I am thankful for the chicken enchilada casserole at the Pink House and the pumpkin Cheesecake at the Olive Garden. I am thankful for knowledgeable and caring Doctors and nurses. I am thankful for the freedom to worship where I choose. I am thankful for balloons, rubik's cubes, squishy balls and office supply stores. I am thankful for clean sheets and a mopped floor, clean dishes and a pantry full of food. I am thankful that I never have to worry about anything, because God always provides for us. I am thankful for 100.9 KXOJ so that I can listen to praise and worship music anytime I want. I am thankful for a church and a church family who love and take care of me. I am thankful for fuzzy pajama pants, and loose fitting t-shirts with v-necks. I am thankful for every animal from the largest elephant and whale to the tiny guinea pig and lady bug. I know it seems like a lot, but that is just my short list. God has blessed me beyond anything I could have ever imagined.
Sunday, November 25, 2012
I sit here this Sunday evening feeling very thankful. Thanksgiving came and went with way too much family drama. However, I am so thankful that I was not a contributing part of it. I have learned in my life that keeping my mouth shut, is much more valuable than opening it. In fact, I am getting much better at it as I age. I got to teach Sunday School this morning, I am in charge of "games". We played several games, all focused on the promises of God. God never breaks his promises. As humans, we have a tendency to break promises, even though that was never our intent. It is funny, the other thing I am getting really good at is apologizing. When God first put it upon my heart to apologize to co-workers who had been just nasty to me throughout the years, I was like - WHAT? "They need to apologize to me, they have been so nasty to me". God put upon my heart that even though they had been nasty and hateful and hurtful that it was my duty as a Christian to apologize first to them. I have to admit, when they were nasty to me, I got nasty right back. Most recently, God put it upon my heart to apologize to one of my former employers. This employer basically had me in tears at least once a week. Of course, as usual, when she was nasty to me, I got nasty right back. And so, with all of the strength that God gave me (could never have done it on my own), I called her up and apologized. Funny, every time I have apologized to someone who has been horrible to me, they cannot seem to say "I forgive you". I wonder what that is about? ? ? . . . . . Maybe they are too busy thinking, "should I apologize too?" Maybe they are thinking, has she lost her marbles. LOL! At any rate, every time I apologize to someone who is clearly lost in this world, God gives me a peace about it. It's like well - Deb - you did your part, the rest is between them and God. And it is, like family drama and conflict, each person feels that they have been wronged. It is likely that each one has at one time or another over the course of several years. At any rate, if even one person thought, "yeah, they have been horrible to me my entire life, but you know, I will apologize and the rest is between them and God." I wonder what our Christmas family get together would be like. Hmmmmmm.
Sunday, November 11, 2012
Wednesday, November 7, 2012
I gave my testimony on being a witness tonight on videotape to be shown at the 9:45 service at church. I do talk about God and what He has done for me all the time. I offer to pray for and with people I work with and friends. I have called people who were continually horrible to me and asked them to forgive ME, thinking that is what Jesus would want me to do. I am not perfect, I would love to say that people can see Jesus in me all the time, but I know that isn't true. I make mistakes, and sometimes those mistakes are very hard to take back. Sometimes, my anger gets the best of me and I in effect feel like I lose my witness in that. My book "Gifts of Grace" tells our story, my family's story. The blessings and struggles of life with four children with special needs. Were there both heroes and villains in the story - - - - YES. They are in every story. There were people that made our journey very difficult, and people who made our journey so much easier through their words or their actions. There were MANY more good folks who supported us and who would have done anything for us. But, as we are human, there were also people who intentionally or unintentionally made it difficult in one way or another. It is my prayer that the book "Gifts of Grace" is a positive witness for Christ. That it shows how much you can endure when you have faith, stay in prayer, and allow God to take complete control and give you strength when you have absolutely none left.
Monday, November 5, 2012
I am sitting here tonight, finding myself thankful. I am counting my blessings and am at peace. Allie is doing well this week at school. The extra hour we gain at the end of daylight savings time helps. The reporter and photographer that came out to the house on Wednesday did an amazing job writing about our family and the blessings and struggles we encounter every day. Of course, the children were on their best behavior while they were here. For that I am thankful, but is sure doesn't give them the entire picture. Literally, from the time Brennan wakes in the morning, until his head hits the pillow he is using all of his tricks to make the other three crazy. If Brennan happens to turn in early, Adam takes over and drives the girls completely bananas. Two nights in a row, I have found myself holding 2 screaming beligerent girls who were absolutely furious at their brother. Tonight things are quieter, eerily more quiet as I am able to blog. I am about 800.00 short of being able to pay myself back from all of the publishing costs of my book. That in itself is a miracle. I have purchased another hundred books that I already have about 30 people on a wait list for them in addition to a book signing in Broken Arrow. God has blessed our family way beyond anything we could have possibly imagined. Yes, we have had our share of absolute heartache, but in return he has given us a stronger faith in Him and a love for the things which are most important in life. In church on Sunday, I lit a candle for pawpaw Ken who passed away in 2007. As I lit the candle, the lady standing behind the table started to cry. She said, "I knew I would cry when I saw you. I read your book and was so incredibly blessed by your story that I just have to give you a hug". This my friends, is what is most important in life . . . . . people.
Thursday, November 1, 2012
Allie had a relatively long TIA today. It lasted 4 1/2 hours. This is quite long considering a typical tia lasts about 5 minutes or so. She started complaining of a headache, so I went to her school and I could tell she was having a TIA. Slurred speech, slow response time, difficulty following simple 2 step directions. We did trick or treat last night but we were home by 8. Still, this could have been the culprit. Because Allie is not well tonight, I am again missing out an awesome opportunity to watch my son. One of the football team captains at school was reading my book. He saw in there that Brennan had Hashimoto's thyroid disorder and that his extreme short stature had made it impossible to ever play football. He came to me and asked, if it was okay with the coaches, could Brennan come out with them and participate in the coin toss. He said they would get him a jersey and everything. Of course Brennan is so excited about this, as am I. Donald is getting to go and get to watch this event, but I must stay home with my sick baby. It is a mother's duty. I will say this, when the captain of the football team comes up with such an unselfish and gracious act of kindness, it brings me to tears. What an amazing gift he has given my son. What an amazing man this boy will become. He inspires me. I am privileged to be one of his teachers. I will never forget him and what he did for Brennan.